After eleven months

More than six months since the last report. "At public request" I'll try to up-date this blog, if for no other reason than telling I'm just fine!

Being circumcised is a natural part of my life, and I can hardly remember how it is to have a foreskin. My penis hasn't changed very much, as you can see in the pictures!

The other day I got an e-mail from a Swedish guy who had recently been circumcised for medical reasons. At the clinic he'd been to they had told him that they'd got lots of calls from guys asking for cosmetic circumcisions. They had been told to contact a private clinic, which is the only alternative in Sweden for such a request.

This information really surprised me! I had never expected to hear such a thing, but maybe it's true that non-medical circumcision is increasing in Sweden. The rate is very low though, so even a large increase will probably mean the rate remains very low.

4 ½ months

Nothing new has happened since last week, I just got the idea that it might be appropriate to also publish some pictures of my penis in relaxed state, to enable a fair comparison with previous images.

Don't be afraid to comment!

  

4 months 1 week

I've got some mails from guys wondering "what now then?", and realize it's a couple of months since I reported anything here. 

"Health remains silent" as we say in Sweden!

The last thing I wrote was about going to the doc to talk about my worries about the "rift" on the upside of my penis. I came to him and showed it (I became slightly aroused so it was easier for him to see what I  meant!) but he said the best thing would be to wait for at least half a year, since he thought it would even out by itself over time. He asked me if I had any problems with masturbation, so I had to tell him honestly I enjoyed it more than before, and that convinced him that it was nothing that needed correction at the time!

Only that visit to the doctor made me a lot easier at mind.

Yesterday I took some photos of my erect penis, and I realized that the scar has evened out more. You can see for yourself (I hope)! 

  

Yes, I ooze a lot sometimes...

5 ½ weeks

I called the doctor the other day, since I still have problems with the stiffness of the scar. I will go to see him in a week, and he advised me to try to massage the scar in the meantime. 

Measures to be taken will be some kind of medical ointment, or surgical correction. I don't mind either of them, as long as it helps! One could think that I would feel very troubled to let my penis be subject to the knife again, but it's rather the opposite: I know by now that foreskin surgery is a piece of cake, and is certainly easier than tooth repairment.

I haven't had sexual intercourse so far, and haven't shown myself naked in public yet, so I still have that to look forward to, but I'm now masturbating with the same frequency as before the circumcision. Both the orgasm and the way there still feels more intense than when I had a foreskin. There's still no need for lubrication: I've always been rich in pre-cum, and yet it oozes more than enough.

How does my penis feel in daily life then? The exposure of the glans is still very noticeable at all times if I don't wear tight underwear. As long as my clothes leave a little space for movement, I'm very aware of the rubbing of the glans and this is in all aspects very pleasurable for me. Wearing a loose robe gives a lot of joy, I guarantee! From the "clothes aspect" circumcision has certainly made my penis giving me a lot of more pleasure outside explicitly sexual activities.

So far I would like to conclude: I still have troubles of aesthetic nature, but in terms of function everything is just great. I'm still very glad that my foreskin after almost 43 years went to the bin!

  

Day 21: Three weeks! And then?

Dear friends!

Since there's very little to tell about these days, I've decided that the main story ends here! This doesn't mean there won't be any follow-up - I do hope there will be something to tell now and then. Daily reporting stops though, since it will be of little interest.

To all who have given me support before and after my circumcision, I humbly say: Thank you! May we keep in touch one way or another!

Day 19-20

There's less and less to report. I'm now able to masturbate freely again, and have done so several times - needless to say it feels great! The swelling still comes and goes and increases a bit after having masturbated, but from what I know that will be normal for some months ahead. 

I've been worried about the scar on the front side since it stretches, and today I called the doctor to ask him about it. He advised me to wait for two more weeks and then get back if it still troubles me. It feels a lot better just to have made that phone call!

  

Day 18: No scab

I tried to check if the scab could be removed, and it turned out to be easily done. Now it looks more and more like a "real" penis, and that's a big turn-on! The scar is still very stiff though, but I'll have to wait and see how that turns out.

  

Day 17: It still works!

There's not much to report today either, but I thought I should put up some pictures to "prove" that my genitals are still functioning!

 

  

Day 15 & 16

The two last days have contained very little of interest to report, but I have to contribute a few words for "all of my fans out there". (Yes, I know you could probably keep a conference in a phone-box!)

The itching has been very little notable, and I've found that when it occurs, it doesn't origin from the scar, but from the inner skin (the skin between the scar and the glans)! That piece of skin swells up and down a bit now and then, and not all over but here and there. I suppose it still remains waste material built up there.

You're rather fed-up with these pictures by now, aren't you? The main change from day to day now seems to be the length of the pubic hair!

  

Day 15

  

Day 16

Day 14: Two week celebration - itch but no scratch

The healing of the sore incision line on the front is still in visible progress. A minor itch has also occurred now and then during the day. So far this is itch doesn't cause any problem, and most of all I see it as a sign of health.

  

Day 13: At ease again

It's been a quite calm day. The anxiety is definitely gone, and a lot of that is due to friends on the web, which I mentioned already yesterday, and who have continued to encourage me even today.

A sign of my well-being is that I really start to feel horny again! Though this time I've learned my lesson, and won't do anything about it... at least not for the next days. 

I got a very elaborate two-divided comment on yesterday's report. Read it!

Among other things it suggested an increased need for sleep after a circumcision, mainly for psychological reasons, and I've done some thinking about that. The first days I woke up a little earlier than expected, mainly because of uncomfortable erections, but I also felt I didn't really need more sleep, so I went out of bed. This is very much like when you've just fallen in love with somebody! The decreased need of sleep is typical at those occasions, I think everybody recognizes that. The first time after being circumcised in many ways felt like being in love, with all the elation and joy!

And as you know, in every love affair sooner or later comes a backlash, which needs to be worked through to provide the love to find a way further. I suppose that's what happened the last days to "me and my circumcision". Hence the need for sleep increased too, and in fact I've slept 10-12 hours the last days!

   

Day 12: Back from backlash

Yesterday and this morning could be called the time for my first backlash, at least in emotional terms. Why?

1: When I got erected I noticed what I called a "rift", caused by the scarline on the front of penis, making it look crooked. Though it didn't hurt it looked a bit worrying and rendered me some distress.
2: After I'd been stupid enough to masturbate, some of the swelling came back, and the not fully healed incision line became more sore. This made me feel very repentant (who'd think I'd feel anxiety about masturbating at this age?) and increased the distress.

All in all, it felt like a backlash and brought up the inevitable thoughts: Was it really a wise decision to get a circumcision? ...etc.

A good night's sleep and contact with good and supporting friends (not called the doctor yet, maybe I'm a little embarrassed over not having "looked after myself" properly) eased my mind though. The swelling has decreased a bit again, and it's natural that the circulation system doesn't work properly yet in my penis. The distressing tight scar tissue ("the crooking rift") also needs time to settle down before I should worry too much about it.
(You can see on the pictures for yourself, the crook is more visible in some of them!)

Healing takes time! I should know this, and I do know this, but anxiety sometimes seems to take nourishment wherever it can be found, no matter what rationality and logic say. It was a mistake to masturbate, absolutely, but I don't think it caused any real damage, except for perhaps stealing a few days from the healing process.

  

My penis in flaccid state.

  

My penis just starting to erect.

Day 11: Snake in paradise

When I showered the scab loosened a lot, and I could see with my own eyes that the stitches no longer served any purpose. So I boiled the necessary tools and removed them! It may have been a bit to early, not for the stitches, but the scab that was removed simultaneously should probably better have stayed for one or two more days, since there was a little bleeding when it went off. I don't consider that a big problem though, since the bleeding was minimal.

It was a real turn-on to see the more "clean" incision line, and my penis looked more "ready". Well, turn-on... I started to erect, and then I got a bit concerned by the scarline on the front of the penis. It formed sort of a rift when I erected, as if it was stiff and didn't follow the tissue around when expanding. It didn't hurt, but the penis looked a bit bent when hardened, as you can see on the photos. 

Nevertheless, all the arousal caused me to do something I'd told myself to await until later. Masturbate, of course! I tried to be careful and not rub the scar, so I stimulated only scrotum and glans, which was quite enough. The sensation of penile skin stretched like never before was extremely exciting! All in all, I had a pleasurable moment, and then ejaculated in a way I've never experienced before. The semen shot in the air like a geyser and even hit my face!

Afterwards I felt a little regret... Shouldn't I have waited a few more days? Maybe so, but now it was done... That penis crook made me feel a little anxious too. Will this gradually even out, or is my penis now deformed? I should call the doctor and ask if this is normal, but I'll wait a few more days and see what happens. 

Now, this day has been filled with both joy and anxiety, it's really my first moment of worry since I had my circumcision. I'll have to be patient for yet another while, I suppose, do not want to feel regret... I hope this was a bad day (pity to have my first post-circ orgasm on such a day) in the process following a circumcision, and I'm sure I'm not the only one who's gotten doubts in mind during that process.

  

 

 

Day 10: "De-scabbing" starts

Today: Less swelling. More of the scarline that is visibly closed. I won't keep on nagging about that lump, but nothing is really new there... 

After bathing, some of the scab has fallen off, mostly  on the right side as is seen on the pictures below. It also seems as if this side is the one that has healed best so far. A certain point, which I located to a stitch on the left side, hurts a little now and then, especially if I begin to erect which I do more and more now! 

And despite the absence of erections during the last weeks, the secretion of precum (did you know the scientific term i Cowper's fluid?) has in no way decreased, rather the opposite. I think this is the consequence of lots of sexual arousal without relief, so the glands just keep oozing to prepare for sexual activities that never occur!

All in all, my penis seems to be a little better today too!

  

Day 9: Better and worse

This morning the swelling is noticeably reduced in some parts, and the whole penis sort of "feels" less swollen. The skin closest to the incision line looks a little dry, almost as if it'll start to flake off soon, which I suppose it will do, and should be a sign of healing.

The lump on the backside, though, looks untidy and inflamed - maybe even more today! It feels as if that lump is going to keep on troubling my mind...